I can feel the end lingering around me. I can feel the tension grow and the calmness fighting its way to reach me. I’m far from the easy life , my boat is about to sink and i can feel the fear building inside me.
School’s coming to an end and i can barely see myself as a girl who can rock the world. I have become an average student and i now regret the things i have done. I wish someone would have guided me all through the journey .
I dream of being a painter, i dream of a studio filled with my passion and my strength. But alas! Who will understand me in this competitive world. All i aspire now is to join an engineering college. My parents have so much faith in me. I can see everything going down. Oh! I wish i would have stayed away from the late night chats with this boy who has just resulted in destroying my future. I wish i would not have spent days chatting about stupid things which gave away the most important days of my life.
I wish i would have stayed stronger and ran away from all the distractions that blurred my path.
I could have ended today. My relationship is taking me no where. I should have but then i couldn’t imagen the awkwardness i would feel in my school. I couldn’t type “it’s over”. All i did was waste another day chatting with him. I know he thinks this is love. But how can i explain to him that this has got to end. That we would no longer be together when we go to college. We were never meant to be together.
I know the world would take me as a silly girl. However they have no idea about my struggle of keeping my identity intact. In this insane world its hard to find sanity. It’s hard to be a teenager.It’s hard to keep up with the pressure.
I wish someone would guide me up the hill and show me the bright horizon.